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just watched the boondoch saints. wow. im pretty much in heaven right now. it was incredible. and i think all should run to the video store right now, take out that little card with your parents name and address and walk down the nirvana films aisle and select it off the shelf, rush it home and watch it because it will change you're fucking life. you cannot watch with out becoming and active participant, you can't be apathetic or bored or distracted. it sucks you in mind and body. wow. this is almost as good as an orgasm. fuck. my mind is blown away. i need to go and write a little.

and you know its not even about the morality of the story or the triumph of evil or good or what ever the fuck. its just real. every character is the good guy and the bad guy and you want everyone to both suceed and fail at the same time, and when either go either way its tormenting failure and disappointment while at the same time blissful gratification. geeze. how can that be? hmm i definately need to go write...but where. shops are gonna be closed.

damn this city. i need home. i need a home. and no more lie. i need out of these lies. but i like them...not really i just am them. i think. or i want to be them.

i think i need to think. yes... okay im going to stop this shit now. ill go.
bye