i think life needs antipsychotic drugs

I dunno where all this hostilitiy is coming from. I can't get a break, or maybe i can maybe i get lots of breaks and then have to get balanced again. i hate this. is this what it takes to be exceptional...mania. Up and Down and touch the ground. im going to burn out soon. really soon, which is bad. i think i have to quit but i can't because i love my job and my work, and im total invested in it. but i don't have the time to do good school and good work. gaah. Seb was online but i didn't say hi. I hope he's better (from the chemical leak thing). I put my knee out again last night, what a terrible night. hurts this morning, its swollen again. i wonder if i should go back to the needle woman, she did real good. And now this self obsesseed post has 20 I's aren't you tired of hearing about I!

lets talk about something else. The growing rift between the humanities and the 'pure' sciences. EJ Pratt wrote, through his "titanic" poem, warnings about the blind commitment to the ability of technology to be the highest human achievement. That those who see technology as the source of solutions for all our problems, unwittingly attribute human characteristics to technology. This happens because of human pride in our accomplishments. We take pride in what we have masterfully created, and project onto it the feeling that you get when someone is proud f you. if technology can feel that joy then it must, at least on some level, be part human. This is comforting, and lulls us, makes us believe it will be okay because ''We have the technology." then we start projecting other human attributes on technological advancements, calling them with human gendered pronouns like he or she, and this leads us to accept them not as invations on human nature but as part and privy to human nature. Problematic? Yes technology does not have human will. In the face of catastrophe it doesnot react with altruism or atavism...it just continues as it was designed. so whats the point? That technology is wonderful and progressive, and helps us in many ways; but it must be coupled with human choice, ethics (even though i have distaste for the word ethics), and judgement. In the end we are the controlling force (aren't we...hmm) and we mustn't so easily abdicate responcibility. So whats this got to do with 'pure' sciences and the Humanities? simply that the two should be brought together, that there should be common learning, there should be respect and understanding that while some energy must go into progressing technology we still need to be aware, no, we still need to be ingrained in a historic, cultural, social and human legacy; there is a past and it is significant and there is a future and it can be beautiful.