hi monday

the problem with waking up at the crack of dawn (if not a few hours before) is that by 8:00 in the evening im getting pretty tuckered out. But not tired, not ready for bed, cause im still ready to start stuff, but achy and cranky...or maybe thats just the fever. yeah thats right fever...of course. you know who else is going to be gone this summer? Oliver, my only family connection down here. and tara...she makes me nuts, but she keeps me doing things i like to do...and besides as i am clearly demonstrating right now, i thrive und pressure and with stress. And danielle, though she will still be around, but things are all changed and baaahh! okay time to stop complaining and start whining. Im really excited to reapply for my scholarship, its such a nice package. its like a 10 page reflection paper, but it asks useful questions and makes for a very useful and productive reflection on the year. wow it was a year. It was about this time last year that i found out my hand was broken. and next week last year that i was sick (i almost forgot about that sick...it freaking sucked). Now, im a year older and like 17 years wiser...that was exhausting. what a ride.