a thok

Ive been having thinks about life and crisis and life in crisis. And about the state of things, about opinions about the way things flow and the need for more music that isn't for money. on that point i think i understand a little bit about what makes great music: its music htat just is. Some music you can listen too and just hear the dollar signs in the eyes of the writer, and its not that its bad music but really what you hear is dollar signs. Its strange because this is an idea that came to me from a long way away (gr 11 i think) when we watched that documentary about the porn star, and she said that to be a good porn star you had to really enjoy having sex, because the women who just do it for money you can see it in their eyes, its dollar signs. And i think that Miss Valentine was very right about that, and i think it translates into all things that make a person happy... ie music and dollar signs, athletes and dollar signs (e.g NFL vs CFL, NBA vs WNBA, Olympics vs IAAF world championship), teachers and dollar digns, gyms and dollar signs, politicians and dollar signs... the green motivation is devistation in the nation i watch through my sega play station, and the waves of insecurity that sweep those in positions of authority who know they inferiority to those with parrionate intent.

intent

this in an interesting motive/idea/ movement hmm... *currently listening to enya - celtic field*

anyway as i was saying about crises and life, im definately at a crisis point, to stand up and take the shot and let go of the baggage that goes with guilty or to remain obstinantly silent, emotionally sequre and carry the few extra pounds. I think i have to speak up, because maybe it will be bad and cause ruckus, but maybe it will make things better after the storm.